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Wow~ Pretty done with my filing of my notes and stuff. So the OFFICIAL Studying period has begin! Yeah! Hmmm.. Dad bought a new com for me. Finally. Guess alot of typing need to be done to come out with my ultra summarise piece of notes. Can’t believe that after filing. 6 months work can be that freaking much. Actually gonna fill up the whole thick ring file of mine already. Hell~ And congrats to me, that I’m only halfway through in Econs ( just started on production and cost theory) and the other 3 subjects are still left on the shelves. Yeah! I’m gonna fail my mid years! hahs. But anyway, just wanna do well for at least 3 subjects. =D

So today, thursday, i gonna study the whole day, can’t study on friday, staurday and sunday because of the dinners and training sessions i have. So practically I have around 7 1/2 days (including today, but half a day gone already) to study! yeah! 71/2 days for 6 subjects. Hmmm.. Not an easy task.  So to all folks out there, you might see me coming online and when i don’t reply to you. You should know what am i doing already yeah. So take cares folks. May we meet in 1 1/2 weeks time. =) cheers~

Wow. Okay. Someone said my blog was dull, as in very very very sad. Yeaps. Have to agree with it. Actually the font colours simply reflects my mood. Hahs.

So now i should post some happy entry. =) Okay. it all started when mum came back from work at around 7. Before that, it was dead boring. Had nothin better to do. And was wondering am i gonna spend my next two weeks doing the same stuff?! NO WAY! Hahs. So mum suggested to go out and have dinner. YAY! I was so excited la. Have been rotting at home the whole day. Erms, maybe not. Thanks to Eunice for asking me to do the maths online. Hahs, her maths damn pro. Okies.. As compared to me. Hahs

Yeaps. So had pork chop for dinner. Above average. Better than the Mega Meal or something in Compass Point. Hahs. Yeahs. Can’t imagaine a stall in the midst of Ang Mo Kio neighbourhood can serve more delicious pork chop las. And that simply liven up my dampened spirit. Hahs.

Yeps! After that, went to my Great Grandma’s house to watch Jue Dui Superstar. Xing Yuan!!! Ni Zai Na Li?!?! Hahs. I felt that this show is better than the Singapore Idol. Or maybe I’m more incline towards chinese shows?

Hahs. After the show, was like 9.30 liao. And i told my parents that I don’t wanna go home. Because it is simply too boring! So my parent brought me and my bro to somewhere behind Hougang CC to have supper. Hahs. Yeahs. My family loves to eat! If anyone is interested, just learn some cooking skill from my mum. =) She’s simply superb. =D

Yeah. So after the supper. I ask them where can we go next. Hahs. And mum came out of the idea of going to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal. Lol. Bet most people had never been there in their life before. Kinda Ulu las. But very nice. Can just see the planes zoom right above you. And it ain’t those small small figure that is you see passing by your flat! hahs.

After that, we went down to Changi Beach to have a 5 minute stroll. Wow! The place is superbly fantastic. Hey guys out there! If you wanna bring your girlfriend out at nigth, that will be a good place to walk walk =) Hahs. And i suddenly remembered that Eileen Tan spent her birthday at the beach with me and Gidman together when we were in our lower secondary school days. Yeahs. Had lotsa fun together during those days. But i was quite a pity that me lost contact with both of them. Urr.. Maybe not so close as before. Yeah. Kinda sad las. But life still goes on. Hahs. Heys! Eileen and Gidman! If you see this post, maybe we can go out together one day k! =D

Hahs. So just came back las. And Eunice sent me a song in the earlier part of the day. JJ — Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou. Wow! It just simply describe how i feel now. Hahs.

There it goes:

一千年以后

心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由
爱时的绝对承诺 不说

沉到一千年以后

放任无奈淹没尘埃
我在废墟之中守着你走来
我的泪光承载不了我
所有一切你要的爱

因为在一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头

别等到一千年以后
所有人都遗忘了我
那时红色黄昏的沙漠
能有谁
解开刹那千年的寂寞

Hmmm. I don’t know why. But anyway, i feel that i’m very short-tempered recently. Why? Hmmm.. Is it because of the boring life i’m leading now? Or all the troubles and problems i foresee? Or because of the stress that is held within me?! Argh. How i can just let out everything.

Watch the Yuan Lai Jiu Shi Ni show by Kym Ng and Quan Yi Feng two days ago. Hahs. That guy was thinkin of retiring at the age of 35 and buy a island in Malaysia and live happily ever after. That’s what i dreamt about too. Okies. That’s what i wanna do like 3 years ago? But seriously, thinkin of what I am doing now and what i am goin to do next time. I think i will nto be able to stand this kind of peaceful life. I need people around me. I can’t be lonely. I can’t be ignored.

Argh. But now I’m like facing roughly the same problem. And seriously, it is really very Nan Shou. Hahs. Time can change everything. Your mood, your behaviour, your thinking, your characters. Once a lively boy with plenty of activities to be busy with, has now become some lonely guy with nothin better to do, just looking forward wednesday and saturday for Wushu trainings. Argh~ When can I be the lively old me again? Or maybe it will be lost forever?

Wow! I’ve never had a time to think about these stuff before. Seriously, this June holidays really gave me alot of time to think back about what i did. And what am i suppose to do. Just waiting for the chance. And to my friends that I’ve offended during this period of time. I’m sorry.  Hahs. Maybe just trying to get hold of your attention? Lol. What am i saying. Anyway, will be away for three days. To reall enjoy myself with the Wushu pals. Hahs.

Hmmm. Oh! Something to share too. What I’ve read from some forums online. hahs. kinda funny to see what they wrote. But seriously, Some points to take note:

• Be yourself
• Do something you really wanna do
• Don’t do something you will regret later
• Have fun
• Let nature take its course

Yeah.. Can’t think of anything else. So bye! =)

Okay. I know it came out probably 3 weeks ago? Fine. Anyway. I don’t need to pay for the movie. Hahs. Jealous ba. =P

Yeah. Really enjoyed the show. If you really know it well. I mean know the bottom line of the whole story la.

Yeps. To summarise everything, It’s all about greed. People getting blinded by greed. Ya. That’s the dark side. And it also apply to everyone. Yes! Including you.. for fame, wealth, love.. What else?

Hahs. Heard all of my friends keep saying the phrase by Yoda " .. anger leads to hate, hate leads to the dark side." Yeps. True. Basically. This kind of stuff is unavoidable. Who can tell me that he ain’t greedy at all?

Hmmm. But going back to the details of the show. I really wanna see how many people will agree what Anakin had done for Padme was right? Going all out for love? Betray your friends, your elders just because you want your loved ones to live longer? Hmmm. If i was put into that kind of situation, i think.. really, i might end up like him.

Hahs. Yes. I’m greedy. And probably selfish to a certain extent. Who’s not?

Anyway, it’s just a food for thought. But if there’s someone out there, willing to sacrifice yourself, your fame, wealth and your lvoed ones(okay, everything in short) to uphold justice, fairness and equality for all, I salute you. You have my respect. =)

Hmm.. So she’s sick recently, down with major illness. Get well gal. Yeps! If you wanna sing again, listen to what your aunt have to say. But don’t get overdose with the medicine if you think it will help you to recover faster. Hees. Yeaps.

Sigh. I’m still stuck in this very shitty position. I just wanna get out of it! And not getting even deeper. Yeahs. In other words, to the better side of it. Yeaps! Argh! But I’m just a dumb guy whenever it came to this. What am i suppose to do!? Can anyone help me!?

Hahs. Seriously, I’m really bad at words. Can tell by the SMS you people received from me. Nothing new. It’s always the same old stuff. Take care.. Get Well.. What else? Hmm.. But seriously, that’s what i really wanna say from the bottom of my heart.. So yeah.. That’s abt it.

Alright folks. End of story. Hope you enjoy the wonderful stay right here. =)

And to her:

Get well, rest well, and look on the bright side of life. =D

I guess this will be a very sad entry. Probably my last one too as it serve no purpose anymore.

Maybe the only thing that is worth happy about is that I’m back from the camp.

I don’t really know what to write. Deep down inside me, a fragile heart is being shaken. Don’t really know how long will it be able to stand the turmoil. Maybe it will be broken just the next second.

Seriously, I did not enjoy much in the camp. Maybe people see me laugh and play. This is just a facade. A facade to hide up all the sad unnerving things that happen in my life.

I can’t understand why this thing had happen to me. Is it because of my exrovert nature had really cause you such uneasiness? Had I not done my part? I wanna know why?!

I don’t think that what she said on Sunday is true. It was just some excuses. I don’t want to belief it. I refuse to belief it.

I think it is the lack of communication and the misunderstanding that had cause these problems. Acually learnt alot during the camp. Been thinking how it can be use in our relationship. You’re not the extreme case that I could not tolerate. Thus, I don’t belief we ain’t compatible. And definitely i, in the past before attending this camp, could not understand how to relate to you comfortably. That’s why i think it is how these problems arises.

There’s nothing I can do now. All I can do is to hope that everything could be back to normal. Just that whether you would give me another chance to prove it. I will not give you any pressure it whatever way you gonna decide. But think carefully. please..