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Wow! First time to come across problems in blogging. Yeps. Typed alot of shit. And now it’s gone. Sigh. I don’t wanna repeat myself. As i think that it is a total waste of time.

Anyway, this school term isn’t getting anywhere. Poor results. Bad relationships with people. Stress over homeworks and management. It seems like too many things to do and there’s only 24 hours a day. Haven’t been sleeping well these days. And the thought of going to school makes me sick. Sad huh.

Anyway, just did some reflections during my lonely time on the bus. ( Since when i’m not lonely on the bus except on tuesday with Jason, Wednesday and Friday with Fang Yu and Zi Xiang) Okies. So Not much time to reflect afterall. Anyway, just thought of what I have done in the past, and i guess it really needs some fine-tuning.

That’s all folks. Hope you have fun reading about stupid stuffs in my blog.

It’s been ages since i last blogged. Anyway, plenty of events happened during these few weeks. Happy and sad. Shall not elaborate much of it as most have been covered in my pals blog.

So life still have to go on. Trying hard to survive through every lecture and tutorial. CCA, not getting anywhere. But I’m trying to occupy myself up with as many things as i can. Kayaking 2 Star course anyone? =P

Recently, thought back of the things that i have done. Both In life and in studies. And i really ponder what am I doing at this age of 17th. Some seems to have their goals set, while others are still driving mindlessly down the academic road. So which kind of person are you?

I really believe that time changes almost everything in your life. What you think of right now might not be the same as what you will think in the 10 years later. However, it is still better to set a goal for yourself. Short terms goals. Because you will never know what might be place infront of you. Thus, never commit too much towards your long term goals as it might not be what you think it will be in the end. =D

Saying so much, what am I trying to drive at? Nothin much actually, just to say that I’m going through this period of time, to fine tune everything i did before and trying to do it better. Thanks for wasting your precious time. Get your goals set and pursue it. Don’t waste your time reading my blog. =P

Only One

Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can’t, I can’t pick up the pieces
And I’ve thrown my words all around
But I can’t, I can’t give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there’s just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can’t, I can’t hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can’t, I can’t get up when you’re gone

And something’s breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won’t walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there’s just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there’s just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

To YOU:

Yes. You know who you are. This is the first time i see you getting drunk, talking all the shit and nonsenses. It’s not a very nice feeling for me. And I’m NOW suspicious of how many times you have gotten drunk. Despite in this world where many people loves you, you did this to them. Going out with your friends is perfectly fine. I go out with my friends too. But the Shitty state when you came back is truly NOT what I believe what friends are for.

We can do many thing under the sun. Playing tennis is OK. Sentosa is alright too. Going to the beach skimply dressed. Showing some of your spare tyres, I don’t give a damn. But to go pubbing and clubbing for a 19years and 2 more days to 1 month girl, it is really intolerable. Seriously, I give a SHIT about this.

You think that you can control yourself. Now it is being proven. You CANNOT! I know that you are in a stage where you wanna show off alot of things that is within the reach of my capabilities. Yeps. So what? Getting into the shit you are in right now ain’t what I wanna be in the future. So STOP that. I won’t be impressed.

Trust is what you want to gain. But please know your limits and play by the rules. Know what you should do and what you should not. Stop doing these stupid things and not only hurt yourelf, but the ones that they care about you, love about you.

I don’t know will you give a damn about all I had said. But true enough, only a person that cares and loves you will give a SHIT of what you are doing. So please don’t let us down.

That’s All Folks.

Thanks for the wonderful stay in this place. Guess that I’ll be not updating any event anymore as it has lost its original purpose. Maybe I’ll just upload some pictures and some lyrics when I have the time. For now, Adious!

So after much thinking and struggling. This is probably the end of the path. Yups.

Saddness has engulfed me. But fraid not cos i ain’t gonna cry. You left beautiful foot steps in my mind. And I’ll look forward each day, going on for a better life.

Things change and people do, I don’t blame you for the decision you choose. I won’t be sad for what you have done, cause I will treat this as a learning path.

Time will heal the pain in me. But I’ll never forget our happy memories. Maybe for now, you and I, ain’t meant to be, but I’ll look on and stay hopeful everday.

It’s just the time that you are going through, thinking of which way to go in this major crossroad. I’ll hope you would take your time to think, cause it will gonna decide what your future will be.

Love you so much and love you so hard. But it ain’t the way it should be. Now that you are happy as before, it makes me happier even more.

So take care my gal. Hope you really have a great future ahead. It’s not the end of the road. It is another beggining. A new beggining for the two of us. To look for the one you really love. Or maybe something you really wanna do. Take Care. We are good friends still. Keep in touch.

Why do you let him fall?

Because it teaches a man to learn and find a way of getting up.

So you have not given up on me?

NEVER!

22/03/05  -  04/07/05 I will only fold one heart made of straws. And thats for you, my gal. =)

Heys. Yups. Been out the whole day and now i’m OFFICIALLY broke. Hahas. Got las. Left somew cash. Anyway, it has been a most relaxing day after going through so much pain and probably insomnia because of our "friendly" Mid-Year Papers.

Yeps. Don’t have to guess anything already. A picture says a thousand words. So yeah. Pool. With the CCHMS wushu gang. Hahas. Was supposedly to be a FOC pool game in SAFFC. However, we had to pay one buck for a single game. Boo~!

Anyway, after the pool session, I was quite blur of what am i suppose to do. So i tag along with the remaining people. Yeah. The Wushu gals plus Lin Mei! Hahs. So odd. But anyway, I wasn’t left out of the girls talk. =P And like what normally girls will do. They shop the whoe Lot 1 Shopping Centre from around 6 to 9. Kinda power. My legs were like jelly after everything.

Anyway, took a neo print with Joanne, Yumi, Fang Yu and Lin Mei.  Yeah.  They say me act cute. Whatever. Hahs. Anyway, I thought that Neo prints should be taken for fun. Doing something that you wouldn;t really gonna do in real life. Hahs. Maybe I’m wrong. Don’t hit me! Hahahs.

Okies. Enough of some crapping. Anyway, was kinda bored waiting for my chance to touch the pool table (Cause there were around 10 people to a pool table) So i took a photo of our drinks. Hahs. Nice nots? Lol.

Okies. That’s about it. And Oh! Thanks Wei Sheng dude for what you have done for me today. I’ll go for your concert! I definitely will. =)

Heys! People, can you think of the very last when you made a person feel hurt? Hmmm. I think i just made someone felt hurt today.

Okies. That ain’t the main point las. But just pondering how often does a human hurt others? Do you dare say that you don’t hurt others? Well, I don’t think so. But anyway, I’m not here to tell you the old granfather story las. Cause I’m a sinner as well. Hehes. But just try to avoid any unnecessary conflict to make anyone felt hurt las. =)

Anyway, the solution is, just think think and think. Hahs. Think before you do anything. Think of how others will feel. Think of what the consequences will be. ^.^ Have fun my friends. Make this place a better place for everyone. No more hurting and no more lies. Cheers.

Damn. I feel corny today.